Social Media Scary :(

So.  Long time no see.

Anyway.

I have made the decision in the past couple weeks that I need to pivot to being more than just a stay-at-home daughter, which is a role I have mastered.  I'm great at having a college degree, working part-time, and living at my parents' house.  Master of it, really.  I'm the queen of all stay-at-home daughters.  That being said, I can't do this the rest of my life.  Like I said, I have a liberal arts degree.  I studied creative writing and music and theatre - like, I actually did stuff.  I made stuff.  And I was sort of good at doing and making that stuff, and it's stuff I like to do, so why not spend some time, ya know, actually doing that stuff?

What I'm getting at is that I like to write shit and make art and make people laugh and learn new things, and I need to be doing that in some capacity for the rest of my life, whether I get paid for it or not.  So, I completely rebranded my social media presence.  That actually started with this blog, because I love the Y2K of it all.  But the real rebrand came was me putting on a full face of model-off-duty (lol) makeup, doing glamour shots out in my yard like a lame Midwesterner, like this is Napoleon Dynamite, archiving all of my photos, and making my Instagram public like I'm actually important or something.

Which is a scarier process than I thought it would be.

People I know follow me - friends, family, people who I haven't spoken to since high school - and will inevitably see this.  They will now see this carefully curated version of myself, that I have curated myself, and people will be able to see my attempts at trying to create something.  It's a weird balance between authenticity (art is a practice of both honesty and emotional manipulation, which can surprisingly go hand-in-hand) and putting your best foot forward.  It's my authentic best foot.

Okay, that sounds weird.  That sounds like I'm going to start selling feet pics, and I'm not.  There's going to be no feet.  But you know what I mean.  You know what I mean!!

Anyway.

What I'm saying, I guess, is that being vulnerable is hard in any arena, and this is all going to be an exercise in sharing my authentic creations without being TMI.  I like to maintain an air of mystery, after all, and have no desire for people to know everything about me.  And I doubt anyone should want to.